Amazingly Average

There are so many things I wish I could be amazing at…

I’m not a writer… more a quick thoughts on paper gal.

I’m not a blogger… as you can probably tell by the infrequency of my posts. LOL

I’m not a speaker… I’m a talker.

I’m not a singer… but I can read music and keep a tune.

I’m not a dancer… although our first dance at our wedding was the cha-cha.

There are days when

I’ve obviously spent too much time looking at others’ amazing talents

because I feel very ‘less than’ and well, not amazing at anything.

My whole life I feel like I’ve been average.

Don’t get me wrong,

I can do anything I put my mind to,

but I never seem to excel the way those around me do

and it always seems harder than it is for others.

Perhaps I don’t have enough drive?

Perhaps I don’t have a killer business instinct?

Perhaps I don’t have enough natural talent?

Perhaps I don’t have enough energy?

Perhaps I haven’t had the ‘right’ mentor?

Perhaps I just expect too much of myself?

Who knows… but the feelings are real.

I know what I am…

I am a wife… a flawed one who thankfully has a very patient and loving husband.

I am a mom… of two crazy, awesome kiddos, also thankfully patient and loving.

I am a graphic designer…

I am a portrait photographer…

I am a teacher…

I am a friend… {of some of the most incredible people on the planet}

I am a child of the King… thus a princess by adoption.

And although I am nowhere close to being amazing at these either…

they are part of who I am.

And as I strive on to excel further…

I have to keep in mind that

I am blessed…

far beyond what I deserve.

When I remember that I am blessed…

when I take time to be thankful…

all those things I wish I were more amazing at…

seem a little less daunting.

Perhaps, even possible someday.

For any of you who feel ‘less than’ today as you look around

at your competition,

your colleagues,

your family,

your friends…

or what you see via the internet…

I am reminded of a quote I saw on Pinterest,

“Jealousy comes from counting others’ blessings instead of our own! “

So once again I remind myself,

and anyone else who might need to hear it, too…

to be content where I am,

yet always striving toward where I want to be.

*I took the image at the top on the way home from Christmas at my parents’. The moon was so big and beautiful. I am thankful my sweet family was gracious and stopped so I could capture a quick photograph.